who am i?

who am i?

at this beginning point, i think many of you know who i am & have followed here bc you’re amazing humans & love to support those you know & believe in…

orrrrrr...

you’re just nosy AF & wanna know what i’m up to now.

either way…

thank you. :)

but i figured i’d dive into the “who am i” post bc if you ARE new…

you’re prob thinking:

whooooo are youuuuuu? [read it like the caterpillar in “alice in wonderland”].

ANYWAY.

hi.

it’s me.

tk.

i was born & raised in a music family in central florida. singing & dancing since i could walk & talk & somewhat take direction…

i’ve been on stage since i was little.

fast forward to professionally gigging by the time i was a teenager & booking theme park jobs, corporate gigs, etc. as an adult.

i majored in marketing, communications, & hospitality management.

i’ve worked in real estate.

but ultimately… i’ve always been happiest & most lucrative on stage.

i got married to my high school sweetheart in 2011…

& then divorced in 2015.

the miserable life i felt i had made me very unhealthy...

having me at my absolute thinnest [don’t run 3 miles a day, not eat & take diet pills].

if you've known me in the last 15 years, you know my weight has always been on the forefront of my mind... you'll see...

i dated in my late 20’s & that was a JOKE.

i cared more about the way i looked than any other time in my life. [like... why i was paying $50 for a woman to wax me down there is something i’ll never do again…]

i met my person, had a huge talent crush on him & started dating on accident in 2016…

[i say "accident" bc you know how it goes after you "swear off dating"]...

i had gained the “happy” weight we all do when we’re newly in a relationship.

we got engaged in 2017 & married in 2018.

i started going to the gym again & eating healthy for the wedding.

i was diagnosed w/ PCOS later that year & was told i had a 10% chance of conceiving naturally…

[which made sense as to why i didn’t get pregnant w/ my ex but thank GOD]…

i changed my diet after my endo’s recommendation & we got pregnant mid 2019!

however… he had trisomy 13 & many other things that were wrong w/ him.

i had to have a DNC at 16 weeks.

my body had gone through a yo-yo, valley, mountain… whatever you want to call it.

at this point, i had been a size 4 to 8 to 10 to 6 to 4 to 8 in 4 years.

miraculously… we got pregnant again in 2020 & had our 1st child in 2021.

she was perfect.

i lost my dad to a very long battle of cancer in 2022…

& 2 weeks later, we found out we were pregnant again… 2 weeks before our 1st child's 1st birthday.

our 2nd daughter was born in 2022 & just turned 1.

SOOOOOOOOOOO w/ all that baggage & life chapter crazy…

my body went through A LOT.

you're prob thinking: TAKARA GET ON W/ IT WHAT IS YOUR POINT?!

WELL... i was performing the whole time.

being a singer/dancer has created me to be veryyyy in tune w/ my body.

the way it looks.

the way it feels.

the way it photographs.

the way it represents me in a mirror or in someone else’s eyes.

the outfits i choose to wear on a daily basis is based on:

if i’ll be sitting or standing…

if my stage will be high or ground level…

if i’ll be outside or inside…

if the weather will be dry or wet/hot or cold…

if i’m on my period or not…

if i’m going to wearing it all day or just for a few hours…

if i’m pregnant or not…

there are so many things that go into choosing what i wear…

so when someone says “you always look great & so put together”…

now you know why…

what the process in my mind looks like…

& how i get there.

it sounds daunting.

but it’s not.

i promise.

i’ve held manyyyyyyy jobs & roles & bc of this, yes… i’ve learned a thing or 2 about interviewing & auditioning but also… about that first impression… about how if you feel good in what you’re in… you’re going to feel the biggest confidence boost you can control…

you’re going to set yourself apart from someone else… or maybe just from your past self.

& that’s my goal for you.

let’s dress the way you want to…

but for you…

for your body…

for your acceptance & no one else’s.

let me use my yo-yo dieting, performing, exercise obsessed, unhealthy binge eating, bargain hunting addiction & experiences for good.

[haha it sounds dark when i say it like that]…

but life isn’t all good all the time.

& sometimes we’re in a rut.

& sometimes we can start getting you out of it when we start w/ what you put on…

look at…

wear...

every day.

:)

welcome to SYNTHESIZED [by tk].